All the little things..

Isn't it funny now you realized You've try so hard to make someone happy But they do nothing for you They don't care about you While when you less care to someone Surprisingly they do much sweet things Perhaps what you really want is not really good for you Perhaps all this time you got it wrong You have to be happy for yourself first Then you could make happiness for another Perhaps you have to love yourself first Before you love someone else

Saudade was once described as "the love that remains" after someone is gone. Saudade is the recollection of feelings, experiences, places, or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, well-being, which now triggers the senses and makes one live again. It can be described as an emptiness, like someone or something that should be there in a particular moment is missing, and the individual feels this absence. It brings sad and happy feelings together: sadness for missing and happiness for experiencing the past. Credit to: Wikipedia I had moodswing, today is the last day being 22 for me. I can't control everything on my mind. I think a lot. Love life, work things, family, mostly: What you've done for this 22 fucking years? Honestly, a lot. But my mind keep telling me I'm doing nothing. Fuck, I'm 23 tomorrow.

Banyak sekali cerita yang ku dengar Banyak sekali cerita yang ku ceritakan ke banyak Tuan Tidak satupun menemukan titik nyaman Setelah hampir 6 bulan tidak mencoba dekat dengan Tuan lainnya, beberapa minggu lalu ku lakukan. Dia, mapan. Namun tidak begitu baik dalam memperlakukan. Tak apa, mari kita jalani saja, batinku kala itu. Tidak begitu intens, karena sudah malas berharap berlebihan Ku biarkan berjalan saja. Sampai kemarin.. Dia bilang '2 weekend ini kita tidak bisa temu, karena aku pergi ke Jogja lalu pulang ke rumah di Solo.' Ku tanya, 'dengan siapa ke Jogja?' 'Dengan mantan', katanya 'Tenang saja, kita beda agama. Tidak akan terjadi apa-apa.' Katanya lagi. Setelah membaca pesan singkatnya itu. Aku terdiam beberapa saat. Sungguh, tidak ada rasa sedih sedikitpun akan kehilangan nya. Aku sedih untuk diri sendiri. Aku baru saja mencoba lagi Namun ini terjadi lagi. Lucunya, beberapa hari lalu, aku baru menyadari satu hal. Selama ...